Hello my lovebugs, special darlings! Welcome to Episode 44, a continuation of our ongoing conversation regarding the tools and techniques, and processes of doing The Great Work of Journaling & Burning.  As promised, I share my deeply personal self-clearing process in this Part 2 video of The Greatest Self-Clearing Process, ever.

The first step being: writing down/declaring your intentions.

First My intended goals were inspired by the latest backdrop of our collective worldly dramas: I want to be loved and treated with kindness and respect. I want to thrive, express, and share my creativity, engage in new practices that help maintain my healthy, youthful, and energetic body, and live in beauty and peaceful harmony with my environment, humanity, the planet, and the world.

Next step: list out my gifts and attributes that will support and allow for the materialisation /manifestation/fruition of my goals:

1. I am smart
2. I am awake and self-aware
3. I am organised
4. I follow through on what I intend
5. I deliver
6. I keep my promises
7. I follow up
8. I’m super responsible
9. I am dependable
10. I’m honest, trustworthy
11. I’m the sanest person I know
12. I’m straightforward, a straight shooter
13. I’m hardworking
14. I’m passionate
15. I’m resourceful
16. I am creative and expressive
17. I’m intuitive
18. I see beyond normal reality
19. I’m playful
20. I have a great sense of humour
21. I’m easygoing
22. I’m super positive
23. I’m empathic and compassionate
24. I take the high road
25. I see the good in people
26. I see people gifts even if they don’t
27. I am generous
28. I am forgiving
29. I am magnetic
30. I am magnanimous
31. I’m kind
32. I’m forthright
33. I’m loving
34. I’m heart-based
35. I’m the perfect mix of left brain and right brain
36. I’m a clear
37. I am a deep, critical, logical thinker
38. I’m a doer
39. I’m helpful
40. I’m a big picture person and detailed oriented
41. I’m very calm
42. I’m grounded
43. I’m physically fit and healthy
44. I have lots of energy
45. I’m youthful
46. I’m wise
47. I’ve accomplished everything I’ve intended
48. I know how to rock my life
49. I’m multi-faceted, multi-talented
50. I’m successful
51. I thrive even in adversity
52. I’m great with money
53. I’m a fantastic manifestor
54. My thought quality is top-notch
55. I’m great at self-care
56. I know how to take care of people
57. I’m nurturing
58. I have good boundaries
59. I don’t take any shit
60. I am honourable
61. I have a strong moral compass
62. I easily cut through the bullshit
63. I am open-minded
64. I am practical
65. I am a great STRATEGIST
66. I am not a flake
67. I am not a snowflake
68. I am not ruled by my emotions
69. I am not impulsive
70. I do not have an addictive personality
71. I admit when I am wrong and apologise
72. I am decisive
73. I am supportive of others
74. I am empowered
75. I am empowering of others
76. I create and share solutions
77. I am inclusive
78. I am brave and courageous
79. I easily speak my mind
80. I am real—warts and all
81. I am transparent
82. What you see is what you get
83. I am a great Bridger and community builder
84. I am entrepreneurial
85. I am attractive
86. I have positive energy
87. I have a lot of energy
88. I see through the veils
89. I walk in and out of multiple realities
90. I know right from wrong
91. I am constantly learning and reading about new things
92. I love mastering new skills
93. I’m ballsy
94. I face up to things
95. I think out of the box
96. I’m industrious
97. I’m appreciative and thankful
98. I’m prosperous
99. I’m a magnet for awesome
100. I live my bestest life

Next is My list of attributes that will absolutely hurt and sabotage and fuck up the materialisation/manifestation of my intended goals:

1. I am controlling
2. I am combative
3. I am bossy
4. I am dictatorial
5. I am domineering
6. I can be an authoritarian dick
7. I’m suffocating
8. I can be over-the-top dramatic
9. I snooty
10. I am bougie
11. I can be ghetto and trashy
12. I am always right
13. I’m arrogant
14. I’m a know-it-all geek
15. I am rude
16. I am elitist
17. I’m impolite
18. I play dumb sometimes
19. I am didactic
20. I’m nihilistic
21. I’m fatalistic
22. I can be a negative Debbie Downer
23. I’m cynical
24. I’m bratty
25. I’m intolerant
26. I can be objectifying
27. I’m sexist
28. I’m ornery
29. I’m moody
30. I’m inconsiderate
31. I can be inconsolable
32. I am hard to please
33. I’m a pain-in-the-ass
34. I can be angst and anxiety-ridden
35. I’m petty
36. I think I’m special
37. I think I’m better than everyone
38. I am dismissive
39. I am judgmental
40. I can be cutting
41. I can be insulting and short
42. I ghost people when I’m disappointed
43. I can willfully ignore at will
44. I am condescending
45. I am irritable
46. I can be tyrannical
47. I can be crude with my potty mouth
48. I can be offensive
49. I can be a doormat
50. I trust the wrong people
51. I don’t trust people I should
52. I’m a contrarian
53. I can be blaming
54. I can be shaming
55. I’m willful
56. I can be retaliatory
57. I can be territorial
58. I can be self-loathing
59. I can be whiny
60. I can be destructive
61. I’m stubborn
62. I am obstinate
63. I can be materialistic
64. I can be indignant
65. I can be haughty
66. I can be uptight
67. I’m loud
68. I’m obnoxious
69. I can be doubting Thomas
70. I get caught up in outing evil
71. I can be vindictive
72. I’m resentful
73. I’m argumentative
74. I’m overly confident
75. I can be unsure and waffle
76. I can be obtuse
77. I can be depressing
78. I can be a sad sack for days
79. I’m paranoid
80. I can hold a grudge
81. I’m a provocateur trouble maker
82. I’m an asshole
83. I can be an emasculating bitch
84. I can be cunty
85. I will get even
86. I seek vengeance for others
87. I can make others wrong
88. I can be violent
89. I am brutally frank and hurtful
90. I can be belligerent
91. I have anger issues
92. I am a rager
93. I wanna fight
94. I feel like hitting people
95. I play devil’s advocate
96. I push people’s buttons
97. People bore me
98. I’m disinterested
99. I get tired and wanna give up
100. I wanna just say FUCK THIS SHIT
101. I hate the world
102. I hate people
103. I don’t believe in the good of the Universe or humans
104. I’m skeptical
105. I’m suspicious
106. I hate liars
107. I think the world is run by evil demons and psychopaths
108. I get caught up in doom and gloom
109. I sometimes believe evil will always win so what’s the fucking point?
110. People only wanna use me for my resources
111. I believe in the worst of people
112. I am gullible
113. I am needy of attention
114. I am demanding
115. I am cutthroat
116. I am defensive
117. I am hostile
118. I am a bully
119. I am a doormat
120. I am naïve
121. I am crazy
122. I believe in nothing good
123. I am superior
124. I am inferior
125. I am insensitive
126. I am aloof
127. I am competitive
128. I am co-dependent
129. I am dysfunctional
130. I am too nice
131. I put up with way too much bullshit
132. I am exacting
133. I am unforgiving
134. I will take you out and take you down
135. I am a victim
136. I am physically aggressive
137. I can be too passive
138. I let people get away with shit
139. I’m smarter than most everyone
140. My Fuck you Fuck Off attitude is strong!

Whew!

These lists –this round of Self-Clearing, was very difficult for me to face. I’ve done hybrid versions of this process many, many, times over the course of the last thirty-plus years, and over the course of my own personal growth and evolution. I’ve made the assumption that processing gets easier as I get older, but honestly, that’s not necessarily true, especially when I’m processing through rough patches of great importance.

I spent a few days and then a day in isolation, reviewing my lists and owning my stuff and crying and journaling—I did a bunch of punching and kicking my 100-pound bag and did a bunch of square/polarities journaling exercises.

If you notice—my lists were very much polar opposites—indicating to me that I have all these qualities within me and that much of my Great Inner Work is about integrating these and moving into a NEUTRAL position so as to not get caught up in the pendulum swings and its whirly twirly spinning out of control.

After I made friends with my lists, I recited this prayer aloud, intending the following:

Mother Father God, Essence, Great Spirit, All that Is, I recognise my polarised states as Expressed through my Qualities of Light & Dark have existed in my Mind and ego patterning. I offer them up and ask that they are merged into a place of oneness and clarity – so that I may see more clearly who I really am, and so that I may live my highest truth and bring forth my most beloved intentions. I ask this with appreciation, knowing that my prayer has already been answered. ~ And so, it is.

In the face of what’s happening in our aggregate collective reality, I highly recommend undertaking This deep work, my friends. It’s the perfect way to Check yourself—Your Self-importance--arrogance and its opposites of Self-depreciation—Insecurities.

You will be required to make time and block out 48-72 hours to truly complete this process—so do plan your time accordingly. Make sure you have good food, your favourite treats, and water.

Create a beautiful space with incense and candles and nice lighting, and talismans and crystals available to help support your process.

Turn off WIFI, turn off your phone. Be available fully for yourself, only. If you have children, you may need to plan for child care or do you what you are able—or perhaps plan for another time.

Utilise all 7 of your Senses and when you feel tired, take a break and rest, take naps and baths and move your body with gentle exercise. Have your journal and pens at the ready. This process is the Ultimate in Self-Love and Self-care.

The steps once again are below in the description Box.

Ok, my lovebugs, that’s it, that’s my speech. I trust this is helpful and blesses you all with hope and clarity and compassion for the dancing of the Light and Dark with you. Particularly during this important time where the powers-that-wanna-be and their War for our consciousness-collective and individual—through their Divide & Conquer agendas—such that we turn against one another—are ON.

Let’s all do The Great Work—The Inner and Outer Great Work and collectively tell these demonic lower-astral plane entity mother fuckers to FUCK OFF.

We will continue this conversation—about The Great Work and learning how to invoke and activate your Superpower of Focus, master your Creative Energy, Materialise/Manifest Reality to rock your world on your terms regardless of the circumstances of the world at large.

I love you!